Well today has been a very emotional day.  It just seems like the devil has really been on my back lately.  He has been feeding me crap and making me feel like I don't deserve the good things in my life.  Even though none of us deserve what God has given us especially not salvation, we have it.  I shouldn't allow the devil to get me down and control me.  Tonight I finally broke down after church.  My boyfriend was here, and I just laid in his arms and cried my heart out.  Even though my boyfriend was holding me, it felt like God was.  Chad was saying things that had to been from God cause only God could of made him understand me without me saying a word.  It felt so good to finally break down.  I had been trying to fight and be strong on my own, but I needed to give it to God. 

This semester has been so full of changes that sometimes it feels overhelming, but I have to remind myself that God won't give me anything I can't handle.  He knows how strong I am so I just have to lean on His word which is hard to do.
 
My God is so awesome and done so many great things so why should I doubt Him.  He has blessed me and lead me through so much.  I know he will continue.