For a while now I have felt a real big distance from God.  It was really hurting me.  I am use to having a close intimate relationship with God.  I didn't know how to fix it.  I was going to church on a regular basis and spending most of my time with upright Christian friends.

Well my church youth group was going to a nearby youth rally.  Everyone from the church had been before.  I will the only newcomer.  I decided to go and thought if nothing else this will be fun to hang out all my friends.

Well we go to the first meeting. The guy asks us to say a prayer with him.  He was basically asking us to strip away all our reason for coming that weekend and pray for God to open our eyes, teach us, and change us.  At first I was like I just want to have fun, but then I took a moment and just listened.  I prayed the prayer.  That weekend was probably the closest I have ever felt with God. 

The whole weekend God just keep whispering into my heart that he hadn't be missing.  He was there the whole time.  I just wasn't searching for him.  I wasn't listening.  I was so caught up with the day to day things that I had to take care of.  I remember one of the speakers or singers quoting a scripture and it really spoke to me.  I don't remember where it was from.  But it basically said that God is speaking but no one is listening.  That just really hit me hard.  God had been trying to speak to me but I just wasn't taking the time to listen. 

How many times has God been trying to talk to me but I refused to listen?  I will never know until I am called up to heaven.  I know when I do find out I will be ashamed cause I know the number is great.  So my goal is to take the time not just to go to church, pray, or read my Bible but to find a time to just be quiet and listen.  I want to immerse myself in God's house, Word, and conversation.  I just want to be in tune with God! 

So from now on I am teaching my to quit talking and just shut up and listen!!!!